Thursday, April 12, 2018

Now that I'm in Bangalore, and I have easy access to books, I have begun to read again. Back in Delhi, I had access to books too, and I did buy quite a few, but read a little.

In Bangalore too, I have to distribute my time between different activities. But this week, I somehow managed to dedicate about half hour everyday to reading, apart from reading the everyday news/current affairs.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Now that I am back in Bangalore, I need to shed off the habit of replying in Hindi every time.

My instant response to anybody telling me something, is 'achcha', not a 'sari'. Even when somebody thanks me or apologises, immediately i reply in Hindi. Then i stop mid-way and say something in Kannada.

Habits have to change, which takes time.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

When I was heading home in the evening the other day, i noticed that a lady and a gentleman got into the bus i was travelling in.

I guess that the gentleman was completely blind, and the lady partially blind, as she was guiding him and helped him buy a ticket. What was very pleasant was that both were cheerful and happy. 

The scene was so inspiring. Dressed in ordinary clothes, two blind individuals were travelling on their own and were happy.

This reminds me of a an irregular instance in Delhi. I used to travel via buses in Delhi as well. At times, I used to see her get into the bus, aided by somebody. And she used to travel to work in the bus.

I used to feel so inspired whenever I used to see her.

Monday, August 07, 2017

I left Delhi and moved back to Bangalore recently. Yes, I miss Delhi, but in my mind, Delhi was not a permanent thing for me.

I miss the strolls I had on Janpath on weekend afternoons. I miss the solo trips I had within Delhi on weekends. I miss the green environs of the National Arts and Crafts Museum. I miss speaking in somewhat better-than-broken Hindi and miss kadi pakoda. When I was in Delhi, I used to move between languages, and sometimes, used vocabulary of Hindi when I was conversing with my folks in Kannada. Used a few Kannada words at office regularly as well.

Guess all this is a part of the deal.

Try to read fiction at times. But my interest in current affairs does not provide me with much time to read fiction. And yes, have started reading in Kannada. Tried reading fiction, but could not go far one, as I read the Kannada script really slowly, and two couldn't keep a continuous interest in reading fiction. I try reading kannada newspapers, instead, where I know I will finish a piece in a given period of time.

That part, I feel the need to write again. Let's see how far I go.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

When others ask me if i pursue any of my activities, i say no. Then i proceed to give a list of reasons why i do not follow them and sound very silly in the meantime.

Wish i could read or paint again!!

Saturday, March 05, 2016

I wanted to key in something in yesterday. But could not. And had an inkling of what I wanted to write. Now, when i sitting and thinking of writing, i wonder what to write on.

Saturday, February 27, 2016

What do i write?

I want to talk to somebody, this is when futile thoughts occur to me.

I am waiting to land a job in Bangalore. With each week, the desperation increases. Maybe there are different levels of desperation. I don't know.

Sunday, February 07, 2016

I have been busy with work lately. Have been reading and writing quite a lot at work, that even though I wanted to write for myself, I couldn't. My reading also has come down.

Yesterday when I was at a neighbourhood park, I overheard a girl telling another not to overreact. Then I thought, maybe the vocabulary of today's children is more vibrant than ours. I should get used to it.

On the other hand, I am waiting to return to Bengaluru for good in the next few months. I really want to shift my base. Nothing's turned out yet, and I am trying not to get very anxious from being anxious already. I really hope and I really want to.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

I was in a nearby park in the evening today where I interacted with a school-going boy who was there with a friend. The boy with whom I was talking was talking a little gibberish and then I missed Mysore.

My friends also spoke gibberish and do so even to this day. And now, when I am in the north and my friends down south, I miss such talk, although it does not make much sense. Its just a couple of people yapping away. It makes you feel glad.

I miss writing. The last weekend, I was at the Sangeet Natak Akademi and listened to some beautiful music on the shehnai. It was soothing. Also saw a nice Kannada play. There was a festival going on where they had invited artists from across the country.

This is not connected to what is there above. I saw that there are a couple of spelling errors in the earlier posts. Sorry for that. Will try to key things correctly hence forth.

Saturday, January 09, 2016

So, the last post was indeed the last one for the last year. Wanted to write something else before the year ended.

As I mentioned, I saw the movie - Lakshmi. It was the first such movie without tearing up, some scenes are pretty poignant. Maybe I saw it alone, that's why. Maybe, I can watch such movies without getting agitated or emotional. I want to be emotionally strong when a situation requires it. That said I don't want be harsh either.

Hope this year brings new and nice things to you all!!